Tuesday, December 17, 2019

Out Of the Woods

Friday seemed to come around so fast but as I was packing my bags to leave I wasn't sad, I was so happy because I was going home with more than what I came with, I had Angus back but I felt bad for Tess, for what she was going to face once she got home. Tess is the strongest person I know, she speaks her mind in every situation and she doesn't take anyone else's crap but I know that she hates hurting people too and I also know that the thought of hurting Declan would be eating her up inside. 
I open a drawer I filled with skirts and shorts and I find my red mini skirt, the skirt I was wearing the night Charlie put his hand up my thigh and forced a kiss upon me. I decided that if I was going home with the boy I wanted then I could leave behind something that reminded me of the boy I regret ever talking to. It was a fair trade off.
I take my bag down to the kitchen and place it with the pile of others. Tess is in the kitchen, cleaning the bench, she cleans whenever she's nervous about something.
"Which car do you want to go in?" I ask her, she can go with Angus, Steph, Annabelle and I and get home straight away or go with Declan, Cassie and Sam and have a delayed trip because they live in different suburbs and she would be stuck alone with Declan for the last part of the drive.
"I'll go in the van with Declan, I can't leave Cassie alone to be bored by the sports talk, she would never forgive me" She says as she wipes over the same spot four times. Angus walks in from outside and grabs my bag, he looks at Tess in the kitchen cleaning and comes over.
"We have cleaners who come in do that Gerttie" He tells her but she doesn't stop, she sprays the bench again and wipes it over,  her head hung low to hide her tears.
"She's nervous" I whisper to Angus, after our dinner I told him about how she was going to break up with Declan.
"Tess if you're free this weekend I was thinking of having the back wall of the gym painted with one of your awesome murals, something that motivates people" Angus suggests and she looks up at him with a big smile. This is his way of taking her mind off the nerves.
"I'd love to, I have so many ideas of what to design, I'll draw some up when we get home and you get the paints" She says, excited by the new project.
"I really appreciate it little sis, you're a big help and I'll pay you for your work too" Angus says, pulling her in for a hug. This is the distraction Tess needed and I'm so grateful to Angus for helping her.

Angus handed me his keys when we were on the ferry back to the mainland.
"You're driving us back Princess" He says with a big smile on his face.
"I don't know the way though" I panic, this would be the furtherest I've driven and I'm not good with roads I don't know or heavy traffic.
"I know the way baby, you'll be alright and the traffic is light on a Friday morning. The more you practice the better you will get and before you know it you will be doing this drive all the time" He assures me, boosting my confidence up, "Just take your time baby".
The traffic is really light on the drive back so I don't feel as much pressure and it also helps that I am able to follow Declan's van back to the suburbs.
"Angus doesn't let just anyone drive his car" Steph says as we come onto the freeway, she knows this is a big deal for us both.
"Well I know Zoey isn't going to run my baby into the curb" Angus says laughing
"That happened one time Angus, let it go" Steph replies defensively and we all laugh.
Declan pulls off into Newcrest and I follow the road to Brindleton Bay, the drive home was smooth and easy, we made it back in just 2 hours.
I drop Annabelle and Steph at Steph's place and then on to my own house. 
"We're ok, right Zoey?" Angus asks in a small voice as we sit in the car out the front of my house, "I know I've got a lot of making up to do to fix what I broke" He looks at me with a worried expression on his face.
"Angus we're good, even better than good, we are great." I confirm to him, "Where is this coming from anyway?" I question
"Just with Tess and Declan splitting up, it made me worry about you and me" He frets
"We are nothing like Tess and Declan, you know that" I tell him, touching him on the leg
"Don't ever let us be either, if something bothers you I need you to speak up and tell me, please don't ever let it get to the point that it did in Del Sol Valley" He begs me, I can see that it still weighs heavy on him.
"The only problem that I had was you keeping Steph's calls secret and now we've sorted that, we're good, we're strong" I promise him and he smiles warmly at me
"Are we training today?" He asks, changing the subject
"Can we skip it? I doubt Tess will be in the mood to go and I just wanna stay home" I say
"We can skip it, just this once" He replies.
We go inside and I throw myself down on my comfy bed, I've missed sleeping in my own bed.
 I can hear footsteps coming from upstairs in the kitchen, most likely my mother.
"We should go up there and be sociable" Angus suggests and I lead the way up the stairs. My Mother is busy putting away the groceries, she sees us and drops what she's doing to come give us hugs.
"My baby is back, I've missed you" She says kissing me on my cheeks, "And she brought Angus with her" Now its his turn for a kiss on the cheek
"Hey Ruth, let me get those for you" Angus says as he starts packing away the groceries
"You're a good boy Angus" She praises him before turning her attention back to me, "Where's Tess? Please don't tell me you two are still fighting" She scolded me
"We made up on the first day there, you know we can't stay mad at each other for long." I tell her, "She's with Declan, Angus brought me home", Mum smiles brightly at Angus.
"You take such good care of my baby" She says, throwing her arms around him
"She's my Princess Ruth, I've gotta treat her right" He tells her and I watch Mum's eyes go wide.
"Does this mean?" She asks us both and we nod, "I knew you two would sort things out" She says, kissing me on the head, everyone seemed to believe it except me.
"Can Angus stay for dinner?" I ask Mum
"Of course sweetie but Don won't be home til late tonight, I know he's dying to talk to about that house you are going to look at" Mum says to Angus
"What house?" I question Angus and he smiles at me.
"I was going to look at house this afternoon, it's not far from here actually, I sent the details to Don last night and I was going to ask if you wanted to come have a look with me but I got sidetracked by all the Tess and Declan drama" He explains
"Theres drama with Tess and Declan" My mother asks surprised
"She's breaking up with him" I inform her
"Oh, I did see that coming actually, he's a lovely boy but she's just out grown him" Mum says, "Anyway tell me about your holiday, did you have a good time?"
"I had the best time, I want to go back there and play on the beach and swim with dolphins, I loved it" I tell her as I dance around the kitchen, I think Sulani is my new favourite place.

That afternoon Angus drove us to look at the house he is thinking of buying, we met the real estate agent out the front. The house is a modern style, two story with basement, four bedrooms, two bathrooms, kitchen, laundry, pool out back with a decent sized backyard. The bedrooms are spacious with an ensuite in the main bedroom. The house looks to be freshly painted and has hardwood flooring throughout. Theres even a fireplace in the living room.
"What do you think Zo?" Angus asks me after we've viewed every room
"I think it looks amazing but are you sure you're ready to leave the city for the suburbs? It's a big change and you can't just walk to work from here" I point out
"I'm going to step back from the gym next year, let Immie and Justin run things while I'm studying and this is close to your family, there's even room for Tess to come live here like you wanted, as long as she knows to not walk in while we are showering" He says and I kind of like the idea of staying in Brindleton Bay.
"I'd love to live with you here" I tell him and he kisses me on the forehead
"I'll put an offer in then, if they accept it we could be moving in by Christmas" He says smiling brightly at me. I can't believe that in six weeks time I could be living with him and celebrating Christmas in a new home. 
"We haven't got any furniture, we are going to need so much if we are going to live here" I start to stress thinking about all the things we have to get organised before moving in but, as usual, Angus is not stressed about anything, he just takes me into his arms and says
"We will go shopping on Sunday, it will all be sorted and You and Tess can be in charge of decorating however you want" Full creative control over a new project, Tess will love this.

When we arrive back at my house Tess is sitting in the backyard, sketch pad in hand, drawing away, she jumps up excited when she sees us coming.
"I think I have the perfect design for the wall" She tells Angus holding up her sketch pad. I love seeing Tess' art work, how she's able to tell a story with a simple design. Her concept for the wall is marathon being run, shown from the angle of the finish line as the person in first place is just about to cross it.
"I love it Tess" Angus praises her, "I'll pick you up in the morning and we'll get paints"
"You can stay over" I tell him.
"I would love to baby but I really should put in some sibling time with Immie after being away for a week and I have schedules to do for next week" He says and I'm disappointed but I do understand, "Can I take you on a date tomorrow night?" He asks me and I instantly perk up
"Yes you can, I have work until 3 though" I tell him
"I'll pick you up at 6, take you somewhere fancy" He promises and I feel so special.
"Ah cute, dinner dates, I'm going to miss those" Tess says, interrupting our moment.
"Did you talk to Declan?" I ask her, I know when Tess sets her mind on something that nothing stops her from following through
"Yeah I did, I told him that it just wasn't working anymore, that we'd grown apart. I think he thinks I'll be over it tomorrow and everything will stay the same" She complains, "Why can't my break up be as easy as yours was?" She laughs, I look at Angus, both of knowing it was anything but easy.
"When Zoey broke up with me it ripped my heart out Teresa" Angus states and I can see the pain in his eyes, like he's reliving that moment all over again, stupid tackless Tess, she never thinks before she speaks.
"I know it hurt you, both of you, I was the only person who saw what you were both going through, I just meant that when she told you it was over you listened, you didn't treat it as a joke and think she's just PMSing, which is exactly what Declan accused me of. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to offend you Angus, or you either Zo, I'm just angry that he even takes me breaking up with him as a joke" Tess explains and I see Angus soften. 
"He'll get the picture when you're not chasing after him anymore" Angus tells Tess, speaking from his own experience I suspect, I lean over and kiss him on the cheek, I'm so grateful our dark days are behind us

Never Grow Up

"I have sand in places that I didn't even know I had places" I laugh with Angus in the shower.
"You loved it baby" He says as he squirts cucumber scented body wash onto a loofa and massages it into my skin, Im covered in bubbly suds and sand.
"It was pretty romantic" I tell him, flashbacks of the night before playing back in my mind, his soft touches on skin, how he took his time and it was slow and tender under the moonlight. 
"I liked it too, another first for us both" He informs me and I'm surprised
"You've never done it outside before?" I ask him
"Nope, I was an outdoor virgin until last night" He laughs. 
I grab the loofa from him, squirt the body wash onto it and start running it over his skin, I love exploring his naked body with my hands, the grooves of his torso, the muscles in his thighs, the way he flexes when he raises his arms and places them on his head, allowing me to wash his sides, he smiles that cheeky smile at me because he knows I'm purposely taking my time, checking him out.
"Do you remember the first time we showered together?" I ask him, thinking back to how shy I was.
"Yeah, I was so nervous to touch you Zoey, I was afraid I'd scare you off" He says, smiling at me, "You were just so precious, you still are but now I've touched you all over" 
"And you will be the only one who ever touches me like that, just you Angus" I promise him and he pulls me in for a hug. 
The bathroom door swings open and Tess comes charging in.
"I have been looking for you everywhere, Cass and I were at the tourist beach just now and we saw the hottest code 15" She announces to me, not even flinching when she sees I'm in the shower with Angus, "Hey Angus, oh, the tattoo is a fish? Awesome" She greets him before leaving as quickly as she came in.
"Does she often walk in on you while you're showering?" He asks me, completely floored by what just happened
"Yes, I'm used to it, I just didn't think she would while you're in here, I'm so sorry, I should of locked the door" I apologise and he bursts out laughing.
"She really has no filter" He laughs, "What's a code 15 anyway?"
"When we were in year 7 we would check out the year 12 boys, I'm guessing because we saw them as being the hottest males we'd been exposed to at that point, it's silly and childish really but we came up with this code, if you can stare at him for 15 seconds then he is unbelievably hot, we just kept it going throughout school, it was our secret code" I explain, embarrassed about how stupid it sounds out loud and I feel like a silly school girl
"I was in year 12 when you were in year 7" He smiles at me knowing he was most likely one of the boys we were checking out.

Angus organised for us all to go snorkelling in the ocean near the house. We take a boat out to the middle of the ocean and jump into the warm water, put on our masks and snorkels and explore. I see schools of beautifully coloured fish, a pod of dolphins and even a family of turtles. Tess swims up next to me and points, we see jelly fish bobbing along and three seahorses. I come back up to the surface and put my mask and snorkel back in the boat and swim around with Cassie
"Did you see the turtles?" I ask her excited
"Oh yeah and those dolphins, they were awesome" She  squeals.
One by one the others come up to the surface with stories of the sea life they found under the water.
"I saw a mermaid" Tess tells us and we all laugh
"Pretty sure that was just a giant fish" Declan says and she splashes water at him and swims away.
Angus swims up next to me and wraps his arms around my waist, pulling me in close for a kiss.
"Did you have fun Princess?"He asks me 
"I love being out here, the ocean is unbelievable , we have nothing like this in Brindleton Bay. Thank you baby" I tell him
"You're welcome" He replies, "We should head back in though, I saw a shark swimming around and I want to get lunch, not be lunch" He laughs. I've never moved so fast in my life.

We all walked to The Sandbar for lunch and early afternoon drinks.
"Cocktails ladies?" Steph suggests and we all cheer in agreement. The Sandbar's cocktail of the day is the Blue Lagoon and the mixologist is making them strong, I drink half of mine and feel tipsy.
"Come dance" Cassie says, taking my hand and we head out onto the small, empty dance floor and sway to the music from the juke box.
"Tess walked in on Angus and I in the shower this morning" I tell Cassie and she looks at me shocked
"What did Angus say? Was he mad?" She asks
"No, he laughed, he also questioned me about what a code 15 was too" I reply
"I was surprised when she pointed him out on the beach, she hasn't said it since before Declan" Cassie notes
"I think she and Declan may be over, she says she's matured past him" I inform her.
"I've seen this coming for a while now, she took the lead role as school captain and had to carry him the whole year and it was a lot of stress for her, he just kept taking the credit for her hard work" Cassie says and I feel bad that I didn't notice this was going on.
"She didn't tell me any of this" I tell Cassie, shocked
"You were in a bad place Zo, she didn't want to lean on you, she said you had enough going on without taking on her relationship dramas too" Cassie explains. Tess has always leaned on me when times got hard, it's what we do with each other and I feel terrible that she felt she couldn't. We go back to table to finish our drinks and lunch, the boys are in deep conversation talking about how The Llama's were cheated out of winning their grand final this year.
"They were in the final?" I ask Angus
"Ah yeah baby, what rock were you living under back in September?" He laughs
"The one where sports are boring and unimportant" I tell him, poking him in the ribs.
"I had a lot of time on my hands for boring, unimportant things back then" He says, poking me back, "I could take you out for dinner tonight and give you a play by play" He suggests
"As thrilling as that sounds I think I need alone time with Tess tonight, she's kinda going through something with Declan" I tell him and he smiles at me
"I'll book you two a table, can you also talk to her about privacy too" He laughs

"why didn't you tell me exactly how bad things were with Declan?' I ask Tess over dinner, taking her hand in mine
"I didn't want to put more on your plate Zoey, you were dealing with your own boy problems, I didn't want to add mine and weigh you down" She says sadly
"Teresa you can always come to me about anything, no matter what. I hate that you felt that you couldn't" I tell her and her eyes start to well up
"Zoey I just can't do it anymore, he's just not going to change and grow up and I can't keep carrying him. I worked my ass off this year as school captain and he got all the glory from Landgaarb because they would talk about sports in every meeting and shovel me with the work load." She breakdown crying
"Oh Tess, I wish you had told me" I say, squeezing her hand
"I'm going to break up with him, I know it will be hard and I'll wait until we get back home to do it so I don't ruin the holiday for him or anyone else" She confesses
"Just be aware that he is still friends with our group so you may still have to see him and that may be awkward but Cass and I will always be there" I promise her and she smiles 
"I know, I'm lucky to have you Zo" She praises me
"I'm lucky to have you too Tess" I smile brightly at her, "I just have to ask you to not come into the bathroom ever again when I'm in there with Angus" 
"In my defence I didn't realise he was in there with you and I promise I didn't see anything" She laughs
"You saw enough" I shout, throwing my napkin at her and we both burst out laughing