Saturday Morning I woke up alone in a giant bed that smelt like strawberries and aftershave, I could stay wrapped up in the blankets but I know I have to eventually get up. The alarm clock on the bedside table tells me it's 11;35am, I've been asleep for hours and I have no idea when Angus got up or if he is even home, the apartment is so quiet. I throw the blankets off, get out of the bed and then make it, I'm a tidy house guest even if I did sleep in til well into the morning. I make my way to the bathroom, grabbing my hairbrush on the way, I can feel I have a bird's nest of bedhead hair without even viewing it, I brush my hair into a neat ponytail. In the bathroom I see our towels are still laying on the floor from our early hours shower, they too smell like strawberries. I gather them up and am now on the search for the laundry, I guess I didn't pay enough attention when I was given the tour. I know that upstairs theres just Angus' bedroom, lounge room and kitchen so it must be downstairs, somewhere so I venture down there and find a small laundry hidden under the stairs, I put the towels in the washing machine, scoop in some powder and start the washing. Angus suddenly appears in the doorway of the laundry.
"I have a maid who I pay to do that" He tells me
"Oh, I didn't know that, I just know at home Don would go off if he saw we left dirty towels on the floor" I explain
"I'm betting you made my bed too didn't you?" He asks, smiling at me
"Ah yeah, I did, should I have left it unmade?" I'm so confused
"I'm going to pay Joanna $165 today and she's not going to do anything" He explains, laughing
"I'm sorry" I apologise
"Baby it's all good, you just don't have to be a domestic goddess here, relax" He assures me.
No more cleaning Zoey, no matter how frustrated I get with how untidy things are left.
"Do you want to have brunch out somewhere?" He asks
"That would be awesome considering I know you're not going to cook for me" I reply, laughing
"Fuck you're cheeky" He says, spanking me on my behind and kiss him on the cheek and he explains it won't be just us at brunch, "Caleb will be going us and when he found out I was bringing you he insisted on bringing Molly, his non girlfriend who desperately wants to be his girlfriend" He warns me
"That's ok, where are we going to?" I ask
"Funnily enough we are going to the bar on top of Skye Fitness, we've got an awesome chef and he will make you whatever you want" He informs me
"Do you and Caleb do brunch dates often?" I ask, curiously
"Zoey, I've been single for two years and Caleb is not likely to commit to any woman any time soon but we do like brunch and it's not exclusively a couples meal, two dudes can enjoy a manly brunch together" He says defensively and I can't help but laugh at him. He picks me up and sits me on top of the washing machine which has just entered into its spin cycle, I wrap my legs around his waist and kiss him passionately as the vibration from the machine sends delicious jolts through my whole body, I have no idea what is happening but it's exciting and feels amazing, like it's building inside me. Angus scoops me up with one hand and uses the other to remove my pyjama bottom, he pushes my now soaked underwear to one side and I feel his fingers slip inside me, massaging my sweet spot, I can't hold onto this mounting pressure any longer and I feel my whole body quiver, my breathing slowing down and returning to normal, I open my eyes and focus on Angus who is watching me intently. The washing machine had long finished it's cycle and I didn't even notice. I'm just sitting there shocked by what just happened, eventually I find my voice.
"What was that?" I ask Angus
"It was an orgasm, have you never had one?" He sounds surprised and I shake my head, "Did you like it?" he asks and I hear the panic in his voice, he thinks he went too far.
"It felt amazing, I've never felt anything like it" I tell him and his face relaxes, "Do you want me to...umm...return the favour?" I enquire, not even sure if I'm ready to touch his penis but after that I'm willing to learn.
"No baby, I got myself there" he reassures me
"I love you Angus" The words roll out of my mouth without me even realising it but it makes him smile so wide.
"I love you too Zoey" he replies and kisses my lips softly.
We were running a little bit late for brunch but Angus assured me that Caleb is always late anyway so I shouldn't worry but when we arrive at the Skye Fitness bar the only other people there are pale skinned man with dark hair and a woman who looked only a few years older than me, skinny and pretty with blonde ringlets of hair sitting at shoulder length. The man stands up as we approach the table, he's so tall and so pale.
"I've been waiting here for 10 minutes, Molly ran out of small talk after 5 minutes" The man announces to us.
"Sorry Caleb, we lost track of time, had to put a load of washing on" Angus explains to him and the two men shake hands
"And who is this beautiful creature who you're obviously paying to hang out with you?" Caleb asks
"This is my girlfriend, Zoey. Zo, this is Caleb, he talks shit about me, don't believe him and this is his girlfriend, Molly" Angus introduces us, Caleb shoots him a look at the referral of Molly being his girlfriend but Molly just smiles like she's finally won a prize
"Hey Zoey, nice to meet you, finally another girl I can talk to, these two just talk about sports and whose car goes fast" Molly greets me warmly
"Caleb has accepted that my Aston Martin could beat his toy car any day, we raced and I won" Angus tells me
"Was I meant to be impressed by your car Angus?" I ask innocently
"Oh burn, she didn't even notice the car buddy, you clearly haven't shown her the backseat yet" Caleb jokes and I blush intensely
"Let's order" Angus attempts to save me while shooting Caleb a look.
Our meals arrive, I ordered protein pancakes which are super soft and fluffy, both Caleb and Molly have bacon and eggs and Angus also has the pancakes but with a small bowl of strawberries on the side.
"What is it with you and strawberries" I have to ask
"I love them, they're sweet and juicy and they smell amazing" He tells me, placing one in my mouth and it is the most amazing strawberry I've ever tasted. "see?" he asks
"Mmm that actually tasted how that body wash smells" I announce, amazed.
"Are you at University Zoey?" Molly asks
"Not yet, I'm in year 12, 5 months to go and then hopefully Uni" I reply
"You'll get in baby" Angus reassures me, "She's really smart, top of her school" He tells the others as he looks at me proudly
"What about yourself Molly? Are you at Uni?" I ask her
"Yeah, first year, it's so different high school, a lot more freedom but a much bigger cause load and the campus is massive" She tells me
"What are you studying?" I ask
"Psychology, human behaviours excite me, why people do what they do" She enthuses, "What about you Zoey, what do you want to study?"
"My parents want me to do medicine but I want to study veterinary" I explain
"Wow, both would be pretty intense" Molly exclaims, shocked
"You're telling me and my parents have just started coming down on my sister and I with their "No distraction" rules so I'm feeling the pressure at home and at school too, if my principal tells us one more time how "This is the year that determines the rest of your lives" one more time I think I'm going to scream" I tell her and we both laugh.
"You didn't tell me that Ruth and Don set new rules. Does it affect our time together?" Angus asks me, shocked
"Sorry, I was going to tell you, it doesn't really affect us too much, I can still do gym but Friday and Saturday nights are my only times I can socialise now, Tess too, that includes parties or going to boyfriend's places, they kinda flipped out when I told them I was staying at yours on Friday but it's all good now" I explain
"You should of told me Zoey, last thing I want is being a distraction to you right now" He says in a tone that I can't tell if he's angry or hurt, stupid Zoey, why did I bring the subject up.
We finish brunch, say our goodbyes to Caleb and Molly and make our way back to his apartment.
"I'll take you home Zo" He announces after we walk in silence
"I don't have to be home yet, I've completed all my weekend homework already so I can stay longer if you want me to" I plead with him, I don't want to go home yet, I don't want to leave things like this, I want him to know I have it all under control
"Don't ever hide things from me that concern us Zoey" He raises his voice and I feel so guilty inside, I caused this and I don't know how to fix it.
We get inside the apartment, he throws his keys on the bar and storms off out into the garden. I walk upstairs and start packing my things into my bag, I don't want to stay if he's just going to be in a bad mood all afternoon. With my bag packed I make my way back down stairs, I can see he's still outside, sitting in a lounger with his back to me. I open my school folder, pull out a piece of paper, find a pen on the bar and write him a note
'I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I didn't want to cause you to worry. Thank you for an amazing night, see you Monday.
Love Zoey'
I pin it to his noticeboard, take the elevator to the lobby and walk to the train station with tears streaming down my face. I ruined everything, I should of just been honest with him. I put my phone into aeroplane mode so I can listen to music without being distracted and find an empty seat next to a window, perfect, I can watch the scenery and no one will know I'm secretly having a break down. The train pulls into the station at Brindlton Bay, the doors open and I step onto the platform and there he is, looking casually cool, leaning against the wall, he steps forward when he sees me, walks towards me and I breakdown in his arms.
"Im so sorry" I sob, drenching his t-shirt in my salty tears, "I ruined everything". He holds on to me tightly and I'm sure the other passengers are enjoying the break down of Zoey Green's relationship.
"Lets go to the lighthouse, we can talk there" He says
"If you're going to end things with me just do it here" I tell him
"Baby I'm not ending anything, I just want to talk" He promises and I walk with him to his car, get in and he begins driving us up to where the light house is.
"I'm impressed by your car" I joke and he cracks up laughing at me.
We all up in the carpark for the light house, he turns the car off and sits there looking at me for what feels like forever then he speaks.
"You left and I had no idea where you were and I got worried that you had left for good" He says and I can see the sadness in his eyes
"I wrote you a note, I put it on your noticeboard" I explain
"I have a noticeboard?" He asks, laughing
"Yeah, it's just out the front of your front door, you've never noticed it?" I laugh
"I've never noticed a noticeboard at my front door" He tells me and we both laugh. Silence once again falls between us but this time it's me who breaks it.
"I didn't want to stay if you were going to be angry at me, I don't like confrontation" I explain
"I'm not angry at you Zoey, I know it came off like that but I'm not and I'm sorry you felt that you had to run away from me. I'm just worried about being a distraction to you, like you're parents and school have said, this is one of the most important years of your life and I don't want to be the reason that you don't get the marks you need to get into uni" He frets
"Angus I'm so far ahead of everyone else in my classes, I've been putting in all the effort for years and I know how important this year is, even without everyone reminding me but I also want to be a normal, teenage girl, one that gets to go on dates with her boyfriend" I tell him
"I want you to be honest with me though, if it does get too much and you have to step back from us I will understand, it will kill me but you are my priority. If you feel you need to concentrate on school over us please tell me. No more hiding anything either, promise" He's pleading with me and it would kill me too to walk away but I know he's doing it for me.
"I promise, I won't hide anything, I love you Angus" I vow to him
"I love you too baby, when do you have to be home?"
"No until noon tomorrow, why?"
"Stay with me again?" he asks
"Yes but I think we need to do some more laundry" I inform him, smiling
"We are going to make a special stop on the way home, buy some things for Zoey" He announces and it peaks my curiosity
"What things are we buying for Zoey?" I ask, feeling a little silly talking to him in third person
"Something better than the washing machine and you can leave it at my house or take it home with you but I always want you to bring it to my house, so I can use it on you" He's getting excited as he starts the car and we pull out of the parking lot.
"On me? Is it going to hurt?" I ask, somewhat terrified
"Zoey why would I want to do anything to you that hurts you" He ask, slightly insulted
"I thought maybe that's what you're in to. Tess said some boys like that kind of control over a girl" I explained, embarrassed
"Do me a favour Zoey, stop taking advice about men from your sister who has only been with Declan and now I'm thinking Declan is one of those boys" He laughs to himself
"Well what is it that we are getting then?" I ask, if it's not designed to hurt me then I'm fully on board
"Just a small vibrator baby and I'll be very gentle with it, I promise"
"Is it going to hurt when I do have sex?" I ask him, back to being fearful
"It most likely will, the first few times but I'll be there with you and if it gets too much we can stop or take a break, whatever you need" He says and I feel at ease
"Can we try tonight" I ask, voice trembling, he reaches out and grabs my hand.
"There's no rush baby, I'm not going anywhere, I know our fight scared you, it scared me too whenI saw you had gone but I don't want you to feel you have to do anything out of fear that you're going to lose me coz I'm not going anywhere" He says to me in a reassuring tone.
"I know that, I want to do this because I love you and I trust that you will make me feel safe and I want to share something special with you, just you" I know I want this, I just need him to know it too.
"If you're sure about this and as long as you know that we can stop at anytime. Then we will need to make a second stop then, to the mini mart" He tells me
"Why?" I ask
"Because I don't think Don and Ruth want their 18 year old daughter being distracted by pregnancy, pretty sure they'd murder me for that" He laughs and I look at him in fear.
"do you remember your first time?" I ask him to break the silence
"Yeah, I was guy who thought he knew everything and it was all over within about 15 seconds, poor Steph didn't know what to do but we kept practicing, every chance we got and I got better, lasted longer" He reminisces
"Did it hurt her? The first time?" I know I'm asking a lot of questions but I like to be prepared for every possibility.
"Yeah it did" He answers me with the truth.
We make our stops and head back to his apartment just as the cold night air is setting in. He lights a fire in the fire place and orders food, I offered to cook but he wouldn't allow it.
"Go grab a blanket and sit on the couch" He orders me. It's only then that I realise that my phone is still in aeroplane mode from when I was on the train, I turn off aeroplane mode and an influx of missed calls, voicemails and text come through, manly all from Tess. I call her back and she answers on the first ring.
"Zoey are you coming home tonight by any chance?" She asks and I get suspicious
"No, Im staying in the city tonight, why?" I ask her
"Mum and Don went away for the weekend so I'm going to invite Declan over tonight so we can be alone" She explains
"oh, ok, is that it?" I ask
"Did you do it?" She demands, wanting to know the status of my virginity
"Not yet...but I think I will tonight...I'll tell you about it when I get home tomorrow. I love you T"
"Love you too Z"
I hang up and relax on the lounge until our food arrives and when it does I see he ordered us Chinese and all my favourite dishes too.
"I had some help" He tells me
"From who?" I ask
"Who do you think? who knows you better than anyone?" He asks
"Tess? When did you get in contact with Tess?"
"When I couldn't reach you and I panicked and she said you'd be on the train and that if I had fucked up, her words, not mine, then I should get you Chinese food and passionfruit ice cream" He tells me.
"There's passionfruit ice cream in this apartment?" I ask shocked
"Yep, carbs don't count when I've upset you" He looks at me with sad eyes.
"I upset you too, I should have just told you about the rules, I just didn't want to worry you"I explain and he kisses me
"I have a maid who I pay to do that" He tells me
"Oh, I didn't know that, I just know at home Don would go off if he saw we left dirty towels on the floor" I explain
"I'm betting you made my bed too didn't you?" He asks, smiling at me
"Ah yeah, I did, should I have left it unmade?" I'm so confused
"I'm going to pay Joanna $165 today and she's not going to do anything" He explains, laughing
"I'm sorry" I apologise
"Baby it's all good, you just don't have to be a domestic goddess here, relax" He assures me.
No more cleaning Zoey, no matter how frustrated I get with how untidy things are left.
"Do you want to have brunch out somewhere?" He asks
"That would be awesome considering I know you're not going to cook for me" I reply, laughing
"Fuck you're cheeky" He says, spanking me on my behind and kiss him on the cheek and he explains it won't be just us at brunch, "Caleb will be going us and when he found out I was bringing you he insisted on bringing Molly, his non girlfriend who desperately wants to be his girlfriend" He warns me
"That's ok, where are we going to?" I ask
"Funnily enough we are going to the bar on top of Skye Fitness, we've got an awesome chef and he will make you whatever you want" He informs me
"Do you and Caleb do brunch dates often?" I ask, curiously
"Zoey, I've been single for two years and Caleb is not likely to commit to any woman any time soon but we do like brunch and it's not exclusively a couples meal, two dudes can enjoy a manly brunch together" He says defensively and I can't help but laugh at him. He picks me up and sits me on top of the washing machine which has just entered into its spin cycle, I wrap my legs around his waist and kiss him passionately as the vibration from the machine sends delicious jolts through my whole body, I have no idea what is happening but it's exciting and feels amazing, like it's building inside me. Angus scoops me up with one hand and uses the other to remove my pyjama bottom, he pushes my now soaked underwear to one side and I feel his fingers slip inside me, massaging my sweet spot, I can't hold onto this mounting pressure any longer and I feel my whole body quiver, my breathing slowing down and returning to normal, I open my eyes and focus on Angus who is watching me intently. The washing machine had long finished it's cycle and I didn't even notice. I'm just sitting there shocked by what just happened, eventually I find my voice.
"What was that?" I ask Angus
"It was an orgasm, have you never had one?" He sounds surprised and I shake my head, "Did you like it?" he asks and I hear the panic in his voice, he thinks he went too far.
"It felt amazing, I've never felt anything like it" I tell him and his face relaxes, "Do you want me to...umm...return the favour?" I enquire, not even sure if I'm ready to touch his penis but after that I'm willing to learn.
"No baby, I got myself there" he reassures me
"I love you Angus" The words roll out of my mouth without me even realising it but it makes him smile so wide.
"I love you too Zoey" he replies and kisses my lips softly.
We were running a little bit late for brunch but Angus assured me that Caleb is always late anyway so I shouldn't worry but when we arrive at the Skye Fitness bar the only other people there are pale skinned man with dark hair and a woman who looked only a few years older than me, skinny and pretty with blonde ringlets of hair sitting at shoulder length. The man stands up as we approach the table, he's so tall and so pale.
"I've been waiting here for 10 minutes, Molly ran out of small talk after 5 minutes" The man announces to us.
"Sorry Caleb, we lost track of time, had to put a load of washing on" Angus explains to him and the two men shake hands
"And who is this beautiful creature who you're obviously paying to hang out with you?" Caleb asks
"This is my girlfriend, Zoey. Zo, this is Caleb, he talks shit about me, don't believe him and this is his girlfriend, Molly" Angus introduces us, Caleb shoots him a look at the referral of Molly being his girlfriend but Molly just smiles like she's finally won a prize
"Hey Zoey, nice to meet you, finally another girl I can talk to, these two just talk about sports and whose car goes fast" Molly greets me warmly
"Caleb has accepted that my Aston Martin could beat his toy car any day, we raced and I won" Angus tells me
"Was I meant to be impressed by your car Angus?" I ask innocently
"Oh burn, she didn't even notice the car buddy, you clearly haven't shown her the backseat yet" Caleb jokes and I blush intensely
"Let's order" Angus attempts to save me while shooting Caleb a look.
Our meals arrive, I ordered protein pancakes which are super soft and fluffy, both Caleb and Molly have bacon and eggs and Angus also has the pancakes but with a small bowl of strawberries on the side.
"What is it with you and strawberries" I have to ask
"I love them, they're sweet and juicy and they smell amazing" He tells me, placing one in my mouth and it is the most amazing strawberry I've ever tasted. "see?" he asks
"Mmm that actually tasted how that body wash smells" I announce, amazed.
"Are you at University Zoey?" Molly asks
"Not yet, I'm in year 12, 5 months to go and then hopefully Uni" I reply
"You'll get in baby" Angus reassures me, "She's really smart, top of her school" He tells the others as he looks at me proudly
"What about yourself Molly? Are you at Uni?" I ask her
"Yeah, first year, it's so different high school, a lot more freedom but a much bigger cause load and the campus is massive" She tells me
"What are you studying?" I ask
"Psychology, human behaviours excite me, why people do what they do" She enthuses, "What about you Zoey, what do you want to study?"
"My parents want me to do medicine but I want to study veterinary" I explain
"Wow, both would be pretty intense" Molly exclaims, shocked
"You're telling me and my parents have just started coming down on my sister and I with their "No distraction" rules so I'm feeling the pressure at home and at school too, if my principal tells us one more time how "This is the year that determines the rest of your lives" one more time I think I'm going to scream" I tell her and we both laugh.
"You didn't tell me that Ruth and Don set new rules. Does it affect our time together?" Angus asks me, shocked
"Sorry, I was going to tell you, it doesn't really affect us too much, I can still do gym but Friday and Saturday nights are my only times I can socialise now, Tess too, that includes parties or going to boyfriend's places, they kinda flipped out when I told them I was staying at yours on Friday but it's all good now" I explain
"You should of told me Zoey, last thing I want is being a distraction to you right now" He says in a tone that I can't tell if he's angry or hurt, stupid Zoey, why did I bring the subject up.
We finish brunch, say our goodbyes to Caleb and Molly and make our way back to his apartment.
"I'll take you home Zo" He announces after we walk in silence
"I don't have to be home yet, I've completed all my weekend homework already so I can stay longer if you want me to" I plead with him, I don't want to go home yet, I don't want to leave things like this, I want him to know I have it all under control
"Don't ever hide things from me that concern us Zoey" He raises his voice and I feel so guilty inside, I caused this and I don't know how to fix it.
We get inside the apartment, he throws his keys on the bar and storms off out into the garden. I walk upstairs and start packing my things into my bag, I don't want to stay if he's just going to be in a bad mood all afternoon. With my bag packed I make my way back down stairs, I can see he's still outside, sitting in a lounger with his back to me. I open my school folder, pull out a piece of paper, find a pen on the bar and write him a note
'I'm sorry I didn't tell you, I didn't want to cause you to worry. Thank you for an amazing night, see you Monday.
Love Zoey'
I pin it to his noticeboard, take the elevator to the lobby and walk to the train station with tears streaming down my face. I ruined everything, I should of just been honest with him. I put my phone into aeroplane mode so I can listen to music without being distracted and find an empty seat next to a window, perfect, I can watch the scenery and no one will know I'm secretly having a break down. The train pulls into the station at Brindlton Bay, the doors open and I step onto the platform and there he is, looking casually cool, leaning against the wall, he steps forward when he sees me, walks towards me and I breakdown in his arms.
"Im so sorry" I sob, drenching his t-shirt in my salty tears, "I ruined everything". He holds on to me tightly and I'm sure the other passengers are enjoying the break down of Zoey Green's relationship.
"Lets go to the lighthouse, we can talk there" He says
"If you're going to end things with me just do it here" I tell him
"Baby I'm not ending anything, I just want to talk" He promises and I walk with him to his car, get in and he begins driving us up to where the light house is.
"I'm impressed by your car" I joke and he cracks up laughing at me.
We all up in the carpark for the light house, he turns the car off and sits there looking at me for what feels like forever then he speaks.
"You left and I had no idea where you were and I got worried that you had left for good" He says and I can see the sadness in his eyes
"I wrote you a note, I put it on your noticeboard" I explain
"I have a noticeboard?" He asks, laughing
"Yeah, it's just out the front of your front door, you've never noticed it?" I laugh
"I've never noticed a noticeboard at my front door" He tells me and we both laugh. Silence once again falls between us but this time it's me who breaks it.
"I didn't want to stay if you were going to be angry at me, I don't like confrontation" I explain
"I'm not angry at you Zoey, I know it came off like that but I'm not and I'm sorry you felt that you had to run away from me. I'm just worried about being a distraction to you, like you're parents and school have said, this is one of the most important years of your life and I don't want to be the reason that you don't get the marks you need to get into uni" He frets
"Angus I'm so far ahead of everyone else in my classes, I've been putting in all the effort for years and I know how important this year is, even without everyone reminding me but I also want to be a normal, teenage girl, one that gets to go on dates with her boyfriend" I tell him
"I want you to be honest with me though, if it does get too much and you have to step back from us I will understand, it will kill me but you are my priority. If you feel you need to concentrate on school over us please tell me. No more hiding anything either, promise" He's pleading with me and it would kill me too to walk away but I know he's doing it for me.
"I promise, I won't hide anything, I love you Angus" I vow to him
"I love you too baby, when do you have to be home?"
"No until noon tomorrow, why?"
"Stay with me again?" he asks
"Yes but I think we need to do some more laundry" I inform him, smiling
"We are going to make a special stop on the way home, buy some things for Zoey" He announces and it peaks my curiosity
"What things are we buying for Zoey?" I ask, feeling a little silly talking to him in third person
"Something better than the washing machine and you can leave it at my house or take it home with you but I always want you to bring it to my house, so I can use it on you" He's getting excited as he starts the car and we pull out of the parking lot.
"On me? Is it going to hurt?" I ask, somewhat terrified
"Zoey why would I want to do anything to you that hurts you" He ask, slightly insulted
"I thought maybe that's what you're in to. Tess said some boys like that kind of control over a girl" I explained, embarrassed
"Do me a favour Zoey, stop taking advice about men from your sister who has only been with Declan and now I'm thinking Declan is one of those boys" He laughs to himself
"Well what is it that we are getting then?" I ask, if it's not designed to hurt me then I'm fully on board
"Just a small vibrator baby and I'll be very gentle with it, I promise"
"Is it going to hurt when I do have sex?" I ask him, back to being fearful
"It most likely will, the first few times but I'll be there with you and if it gets too much we can stop or take a break, whatever you need" He says and I feel at ease
"Can we try tonight" I ask, voice trembling, he reaches out and grabs my hand.
"There's no rush baby, I'm not going anywhere, I know our fight scared you, it scared me too whenI saw you had gone but I don't want you to feel you have to do anything out of fear that you're going to lose me coz I'm not going anywhere" He says to me in a reassuring tone.
"I know that, I want to do this because I love you and I trust that you will make me feel safe and I want to share something special with you, just you" I know I want this, I just need him to know it too.
"If you're sure about this and as long as you know that we can stop at anytime. Then we will need to make a second stop then, to the mini mart" He tells me
"Why?" I ask
"Because I don't think Don and Ruth want their 18 year old daughter being distracted by pregnancy, pretty sure they'd murder me for that" He laughs and I look at him in fear.
"do you remember your first time?" I ask him to break the silence
"Yeah, I was guy who thought he knew everything and it was all over within about 15 seconds, poor Steph didn't know what to do but we kept practicing, every chance we got and I got better, lasted longer" He reminisces
"Did it hurt her? The first time?" I know I'm asking a lot of questions but I like to be prepared for every possibility.
"Yeah it did" He answers me with the truth.
We make our stops and head back to his apartment just as the cold night air is setting in. He lights a fire in the fire place and orders food, I offered to cook but he wouldn't allow it.
"Go grab a blanket and sit on the couch" He orders me. It's only then that I realise that my phone is still in aeroplane mode from when I was on the train, I turn off aeroplane mode and an influx of missed calls, voicemails and text come through, manly all from Tess. I call her back and she answers on the first ring.
"Zoey are you coming home tonight by any chance?" She asks and I get suspicious
"No, Im staying in the city tonight, why?" I ask her
"Mum and Don went away for the weekend so I'm going to invite Declan over tonight so we can be alone" She explains
"oh, ok, is that it?" I ask
"Did you do it?" She demands, wanting to know the status of my virginity
"Not yet...but I think I will tonight...I'll tell you about it when I get home tomorrow. I love you T"
"Love you too Z"
I hang up and relax on the lounge until our food arrives and when it does I see he ordered us Chinese and all my favourite dishes too.
"I had some help" He tells me
"From who?" I ask
"Who do you think? who knows you better than anyone?" He asks
"Tess? When did you get in contact with Tess?"
"When I couldn't reach you and I panicked and she said you'd be on the train and that if I had fucked up, her words, not mine, then I should get you Chinese food and passionfruit ice cream" He tells me.
"There's passionfruit ice cream in this apartment?" I ask shocked
"Yep, carbs don't count when I've upset you" He looks at me with sad eyes.
"I upset you too, I should have just told you about the rules, I just didn't want to worry you"I explain and he kisses me
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